the heel throbs against the stone
each time she lifts and falls-
ball, change, ball, change,
she can feel the blood congealing
inside her white ballet shoes- a drying itch
between her toes like leftover grass and mud.
she is afraid the blood will run through
but her feet tell different tales,
calloused and thick, sculptors of a moveable clay.
her womb has tightened year after year,
a childless sacrifice to the fairy lights.
under which she imagines she feels extra half-seconds
in a spotlight lift or caress
of her dancing partner whose wife
has middle aged pudge and two red-faced boys.
pas de bourrée, pique tombé, pique tombé,
fall into the roaring applause,
silenced in the nightly tub of epsom salts.
she is a twenty-seven year old menopausal
divorcee who only dances to tell stories
for the wide-eyed children.