11-11-16 who would love me ?? chapter 2

11-11-16

I’m all alone...

As I sit in this class room on a table by myself I’m starting to wonder is this the point to life...

Alone every day...

Wondering what will happen....

I’ve been awake since 2 am....

Just to train for a comp....

Just to feel good in my fat self...

I barely eat anything...

Even my best mate thinks I become anorexic again...

Every day I stand in front of the mirror I just want to cut all the fat off....

People don’t realise how much I hate myself....

My dad just teases and teases...

To the breaking point...

One day...

Just one day...

I won’t wake up...

But it’s alright...

I won’t be missed....

Who would miss me...

The guy i love just uses me when he wants an throws me away when he finds someone better...

I don’t know who’s my friends anymore...

i used to be so popular....

Now I’m nothing....

No one will ever love me...

Why would they....

I’m a fat nobody...

i don’t love me...

so why would anyone else...