my life is a bad dream

this is acctually a true storie i hope you like it... i have dyslexia so my speeling isnt that good.

u cry every night...

nowhere to go then to heaven...

if only he knew how much pain u really were in...

every night he pops into your mind... 

he messes with your head...

but only if he actually loved you..

but he doesn't....

he only used u but u fell in love with him didnt you?

of course you did because he was just so perfect till he cheated ...

wasnt he?

but u just cant get over that smile...

over that laugh...

over him...

till that one day...

he has another girlfriend....

you cry and cry and cry....

but he wants to date again...

you date him again thinking he changed...

but no...

instend...

he blames you... 

you didn't cheat on him...

you truly loved him and would never do that...

you broke up again...

you were so sad and angry with the s**t that said u cheated...

you broke one of your knuckles punching the wall... over and over again....

for months on end you just wanted to die...

you just wanted him...

then one day you asked him out...

he said yes but....

you didnt know in an hour...

he would already dump you...

you date guys just to try get over him...

but it doesn't happen... you try to cover up you love for him...

 its so hard ....

 every night u cry thinking your not good enough....

 thinking you will never be enough...

things are all ready horrible enough...

you cant stand being home....

the fact that they yell and ur sister would hit you...

your mum was a ticking time bomb...

every step you take you want to die at that second...

you run in front of cars hoping on day they will hit you...

at school... 

you feel like a monster...

like everyone hates you...

like every move you make someone is judging you...

why would you want to live in a world where...

the guy you love doesn't love you and you cant move on...

in a world where you don't have a family...

a world where your called names like... b***h... s**t.. crack w***e...

why would anyone want to live in this world is the real question....

Author's Note

what did you think?
sorry for the spelling as i have dyslexia
would yo like me to keep writing??

Reviews

[Lalita]

Nice attempt....
The world can be cruel and harsh sometimes, and love can give you pain. But you should not loose hope.
There is always light at the end of the tunnel.
P.S.- Don't worry about grammar.