Letting Go and Letting God

It’s been over a year now since I realized that my fairy tale was actually a nightmare.  It’s been over a year now since I had escaped from the clutches of that nightmare and embraced the dawn of a new day.

At first, I thought that I was doomed for good and that I was forever lost in a darkness stretching to infinity.  I thought that other than getting my heart broken, my sanity was also taken away from me, along with my will to live.

Gosh, I can’t even imagine that it was really possible for someone like me to be reduced to such state for some time.  Well, ask anyone who had suffered their first major heart break, I bet they can relate to what I’m saying.  Even the strongest person can indeed crumble when the pain of a broken heart creeps in.

Now that I am actually doing fine with my life and moved on from that hellish chapter, I came to realize a lot of things.

Whenever people ask me now, how did I do it?  Some people who did not know anything can’t even believe that I had suffered for quite some time.  They’re all saying that I have that certain glow in my eyes and a happy aura.

Well, it’s a long process but what really happened was, I LET GO AND I LET GOD.

With honesty, I had always been someone who’d rather suffer in silence than to drag people along with my suffering and let them feel my pain.  And when that time came when I had been inflicted with that unimaginable pain by losing in the game of love, I had done the same thing.  I had withdrawn myself from the world and took my time to heal.  I knew that there were a lot of people who love me and that they are all praying that I will make it through the test, that I will become stronger even more.  And because of that, I couldn’t allow myself to sink deeper in misery because their love for me pulls me back.

Eventually, after allowing myself to feel the pain (it had been way too excruciating); after crying my heart out ( I can barely recognize my face after); after everything I had gone through, I managed to LET GO.

I’ve let go of all the broken dreams and unfulfilled promises.  I’ve let go of the pain and the anger I felt deep within me.  I’ve let go of the LOST LOVE and accepted the end of my first relationship.

And then, I LET GOD do His will in my life.  I’ve always believed that, God has a hand in everything that happens in our lives.  And He has a purpose for everything.  We may not know it at first but eventually, we will.  That is what happened in my case.

I am now fully enlightened why did I have to go through all of those things.  God wanted me to become stronger.  He wanted me to learn from my mistakes.  He wanted me to embrace the pain and learn to stand up once again.   He wanted to realize that it was not the end.  He wanted me to accept that the love story that I deserved isn’t together with that man, that he had prepared a better one for me, that the right man will come along someday.

God’s love is unconditional.  His promises are always fulfilled.  His gifts are overflowing. And as the pain threatened to swallow me whole, I tightened my grip on my faith in God and I saw the light.  And that light led me out of the dark.

So, here I am now.  Stronger.  Better.   Prettier J .

All I can say now is, “I SURVIVED.”

 

-April13 2/20/13-

 

Reviews

[Trigorin]

Not bad, but a little non-specific, and I really think you ought to take out the smiley face in the second-to-last line. You have a good message here and you've presented it fairly well, but it does tend to get bogged down in some of the repetitive ideas you're stating. I'd say maybe think about trimming the piece down a little.

[april13]

i do appreciate your review