u wanna know y i wanna die?

It's not Sarah's fault i feel upset,

 its not my mom or my dad but. 

it IS the fact that I have SUCH FLAKY FRIENDS!  

ALL OF U --AND U AND I BOTH KNOW U R-- TIRED OF ME BEING DEPRESSED!!!

 EVERY DAY GOES BY, AND I HAVEN'T SMILE!! 

EVERYDAY GOSE BY AND I STILL RIDE THIS SICK ROLLERCOASTER!  

WON'T ANY OF U PULL THE BREAK?

WON'T ANY OF U NOTICE THAT MY HAND IS OUT OF REACH?!

WON'T ANY OF YOU PULL THE DAMN BREAK AND HELP ME GET OFF?!!!!!!!!

I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING AS U EAD THIS!

UR THINKING THAT U FEEL BAD 4 ME WHEN U DON'T! 

UR THINKING: OH POOR kaitlynn SHE'S HAVING A BAD DAY. W/E CAN I DO?

AND U THINK AND THINK AND THINK

AND IN THE END YOU DO NOTHING!!

N. O. T. H. I. N. G.

NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING!!!!!!

LET ME TELL YOU THIS:

I HATE MYSELF FOR :

BEING SKINNY

BEING FAT

SELFISH

LONELY

SAD

HURT

WANTING

TIRED

GIVING UP

ON THE EDGE

LOW SELF ESTEEM

UNDER STATEMENT

STUPID

RETARDED

UPSET

CARELESS

FED UP

UNLOVED

depressed!! 

UNCARED FOR

 

FRIENDLESS!!!!!!

IF YOU ALL CARED FOR ME, WOULD I B LIKE THIS?!

WOULD I ALWAYS B IN EMOTIONAL PAIN?!!!

would i want to just drop dead?

would i?