A Flagellation

Bad break up

I do ths because no more pride
resides in me to deter my actions.
Because I want the world to see
just how sad, pathetic a being I am.
I do this not to seek their secret sympathy
I look to harness their public contempt.
I want their strained smiles at the shops
and perfunctory hellos at bus stops,
where they will mask their scorn with courtesy 
While i pretend not to see
for none but God's thoughts define me
so will my mind whisper.
I want their scornful laughs
burn the fires of shame in my heart
And their joyful tears to season
the bloody wounds on my back.
I do this with no remorse
And then i will be quiet and wait.
Wait for the couragious amongst them
to breach my sorrow with their questions
And I will confess everything.
This is for trust, I will say,
for every lie she told which I took in,
This is for hope, for that foolish belief I had in something so grim.
This is for love, for loving without question or reason.
And this, this is just for being plain foolish.
I will tell them all that sorry tale
of a pitious heart impaled
And then just weep my despair loud in the street.

Reviews

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phew! Explained the deepest thoughts I've ever heard you know its funny whenever I comment on someone my accent goes weird i don't know i'm saying it now cause i just went country *thinking to self, weird* anyway yeah those details were very imagery and sad. aww. lovely poem but very sad a good writer knows how to make you feel :)

[nathan]

oh yes... and the most interesting thing is that I saw it coming but I would not budge out of the way. I wanted to feel the pain and cry for it. silly it might seem....
thank you for your review silver

[Ruth]

Wow! This is intense love..a powerful stream of self reflective remorse...great flow to add to this...and when all is said and done...and we know we are in purgatory...least we can say its our own ey? Great poem xx

[nostal]

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