Lines Written During an Anxiety Attack

With memories embedded in the hail

at my heels, I cut wholly to my center

to address what was trembling. My heart’s

rapid beat too terrified me, so

I asked how he was carrying on

(he knew not how he fared)

and I lost all knack for crying so

instead sat scared.

I so badly need you to know

that I love you. Know I’d cherish

the chance to cry through your towns.

Surely you have shared with me

the arrhythmia of the everyday,

these pangs of being alive.

And still

It is hard to believe it's been done before,

this living thing we’re doing.

At times, the lifeline cuts like cheesewire.

But it’s in these most insane days when

our souls scream loudest to be written in ink,

in case our wounds are fatal. So,

Let ache the parts of you that will. 

Write the slightest twitch of your bicep,

and the long-muted chaos of your heart.

Let your uncooked insides carry you

into rooms your eyes would've avoided,

And listen:

The gossip of homeless trees

echoes from the tin-can phone strings

stretched between them.

They speak brazen love poems in pollen

as we walk below them deaf, cutting

our fingers on the shoulderblades

of strangers, each of us lonely in a crowd.

Each of us not quite alright, with

smiles like crescent moons through clouds,

and soles unstuck from the cement.

I need you so badly to know that I love you.

Reviews

[JetMardium]

yet another amazing work. I really felt this one, as i have severe anti social and social anxiey problems. I could feel that misplaced feeling of hopelessness that drags us down even when we know it means nothing its just in our nature. congrats on another good piece