be youA Poem by anstledoreAn collection of sentences that I recently wrote.She lies asleep wondering about the wonders the world. In her dreams she sees a reflection of her day. Played out in metaphors that only she can understand yet
vivid and real. It’s the morning now and she just wants to sleep all day. He’s staying strong because showing emotion was seen as a
weakness growing up. They lied to him because he wasn’t open enough to discern
their words. They lied to him because they were being as honest as they
could at the time. He lied to himself about all the different versions of
himself he thought he could never be. He lied to himself about all the different versions of his
soul he thought he would never see. She found herself waking up in the middle of the night. She lost herself looking for ways to comfortably fall back
asleep. It fell upside down as one struggled to stand right side up. The moments of clarity were interrupted by an envious ego. His subconscious repeatedly told him he wasn’t good enough
like a record skipping he changed the tape. For the record everything that was said is off the record. They found hope in a life most had regarded as hopeless. It was never too late to change. He tensed up as he thought about everything that made him
relaxed. His friends only cared about getting high it was low of him
to leave like that. He craved real human experiences. Real human moments She wanted to feel again, she had grown so numb. The frosting around his heart began to melt like icicles in
June. The ego was his enemy. The ego was his friend. He had to make it his friend. He’s so unsure of who he was he didn’t know where to start
looking again. He wants to inspire people.
He wants to help people. She craves real commitment someone who is willing, honest
and able. The reality of our illusions brings clarity. The world is an illusion- to take anything too serious is to
become part of that illusion. What you don’t know that you don’t know What you know that you know What you know that you don’t know. Where am I when I’m lost? Wherever you are. Who are you? Here I am. There you are! Here I go! There you go! When will it end? When does it start? If it’s happening right now why do I keep forgetting? Distractions. Pardon my ignorance I’ve been constantly avoiding responsibility
for my life these past 25 years. These next 25 years ought to be GRAND if I stay focused on
healing and helping others. How can I help others when I’m not right myself? How does one get right with one’s self? Forgiveness. I forgive myself for the pain I’ve caused. I want to feel my soul expand. I want others to be touched because I came into existence. I want others to be inspired, grateful because I came into
existence. I want others to feel comfortable enough to be honest with me. I want to live an honest life. I’m just jotting down ideas, desires and thoughts as they
come out. There is a lesson in every painful experience you’ve been
through. What is the lesson? Take responsibility for your life-situation. Be responsible. Be
honest. Be real Be able to respond in an honest manner. Don’t let your emotions get the best of you. Don’t neglect your emotions, feel them than release. Be grateful you’re still here. Be you. © 2015 anstledoreAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on October 22, 2015 Last Updated on October 22, 2015 Tags: inspiration, individuality, journal, metafiction AuthoranstledoreNYAboutMale writer 25 years young, exploring different styles of poetry, metafiction, philosophy, experimental, short stories and whatever else. Hate being boxed in, Love to express the universal truth that.. more..Writing
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