Different

Poem/rap written on my life and similar to some other people's lives and about how it's difficult.

Different 

Okay, so we’re different, and that is our condition

we struggle to live on through, this everlasting mission

it is the life we put up with, it is the conflict we conflict with

forever it goes on, forever it goes on

I’m always looking around, to see what people see

i’m always looking down, so people don’t notice me

cause all these insecurities make me want invisibility 

paramilitaries won’t do the job, i need a god damn military

to get rid of these emotions, these commotions in my mind

all these thoughts that i’ve been thinking need to go out its unkind

i wanna be reassigned to another, body in mankind

so that i don’t have to be confined and concealed behind this blind

i wanna be free, i wanna be me, i wanna be everything i can’t be

i wanna lose all of these things that seem to be ruining all of me

cause it’s taking away my life, all the life i haven’t found

all my family can’t live their lives because i’m bringing them all down

I didn’t mean to be this way, i didn’t want to be this way

but this so called god chose me and others to struggle in this way

there are people that do help, and they do do it well

but we can no longer live in hell, hidden in this shell

We are so different and that can be quite blatant

we don’t want to feel so vacant but we fear all of the judgment

thats why we’re so insecure, cause we can never be so sure

if we do fit in with y’all, we just need to reassure

if we look right, if we dress like, if we actually seem the same

if we talk right, if we walk right, if we don’t have any shame

in ourselves, we don’t want to be ashamed of ourselves

because we’re different

My mind is like a jungle of knots, that i can’t untie

it’s like a chest full of padlocks, that i just can’t get by

i still don’t know myself, after fifteen years

after fifteen years of living, i don’t feel for myself

I am different and i hate it, don’t wanna be in this situation

I wanna live the life of others and be a normal recreation

this is not how i wanna be, in constant disagreement

every time my body changes, i loose all my achievements

But then i believe i’m okay and can live with who i am

chemicals explode in reaction and i now hate who i am

all this anger inside, it just hurts my mind,

i don’t like who i am, but can’t change my design

i can alter the mechanics, just like in pimp my ride

but just like it, its expensive, to build and to buy

it can also take a while, to let the first paint coat dry

but before it takes years, just for a quote to get by

We ain’t doctors, but we have a lot of patience

we hide behind this mask, waiting with hesitation

And the amazing thing is, we have all this determination

dedication, motivation, just to get out of this situation

we wait a generation with so much expectation

we put up with the frustration just for this new bit of creation

it’ll change our complexion, just a little bit at a time

but the sensation of this creation will make our lives so worth while

this difference that we hate, will disappear, evaporate

and us and families can finally live easy, without the need to wait

no longer our we different

Author's Note

As it was written to be rapped, expect some words to be slang or abbreviated. Also written to a rap beat so may not flow as well without the beat. If wanted to read out along to beat, the beat is called: Dream Station 11 by John Producer.
Please review what you think, cheers.

Reviews

[kclyaine]

I really like it! The rhyme scheme is great. I like the song.

I don't know what much to say. I'm not really lying if I say its cool and great. but few words doesn't shows the greatness of the poem you made. Just expect me to be rapping within my head everyday.

[anonymouslad24]

Cheers, glad you like it