Motherly InstinctsA Poem by Annette Jay SweeneyI often think about you, a bundle of blue wrapped close to my chest as I sing my Jaybird, my own, a product of my insidious craving for a soft voice mewing close to my throat, knowing it could take a chunk out, drink my orange juice for the Vitamin C that it needs. Your hands are ghosts cut off early in the pit of some place below my stomach, a stretchy arena, like the parachutes I want you to play with in P.E. and never forget the way they rise but most of all fall, coating you in giggles and sock donned feet poking around you. I’ve never known something so selfish as to impregnate myself for personal gain. Yes, you will be mine to raise and tend to, but I will be the golden retriever following you around and running after tennis balls someone faked to throw. But I can feel the alcohol receptors stilled in my blood, the cancer cells wanting to grow in the breasts upon my chest, and the mutant firefly burning holes in the happiness we all create for ourselves. You must not inherit this. I won’t allow it. So I’ll play Russian roulette, a chance of cards that may play out better than the ones hidden in the wrists under my sleeves. You could develop doubles of parts or swells that look off at first glance, or maybe an insatiable lust in the linings of your unborn teeth for candy that will numb them and your mind, but I won’t contribute to your pain. I’ll be the one who takes your inheritance upon myself, eats it with a rusty spoon, and then shines it up so you never knew it was there in the first place. © 2012 Annette Jay SweeneyAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorAnnette Jay SweeneyIDAboutReading and writing have always provided a loving escape for me, but both are now taking on a more serious level. I thrive on reading others' work and helping them to improve, while also depicting my .. more..Writing
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