I'd rather be a ghost

I know I’m lost and in a daze
I promise you it’s not a phase
Swallowing me is all of you
I’m trying to catch my breath
While you just sit there calmly

Where is the me I love?
The me that you once loved too
I remember you wanted to see me angry
Wanted to get a rise
Boy I gave you my cries
I gave you the dark pieces of me
I gave you anger you pried for
I gave you broken dishes
Thrown across the floor
You?
You gave me love on good days
You gave me misery on the other
You gave me the knife
That stabbed me in the back
You gave me your goodbye
Only to wish me back

I moved on like it was nothing
I remember being in my body
Moving through the days
But I wasn’t really there
I wasn’t really alive
Numbness is quite the pill
A dose I never asked for
But a pill that I overdosed on
Because now I’m just a ghost
A ghost is what you created
Thanks for the pain
I’ve got nothing to gain
Thanks for showing me
The very worst parts of me
I’ll carry them with me
To protect me from someone like you
I’d rather be a ghost
Than feel love turn my stomach
Upside down
I’d rather be a ghost
Than hear what you hate about me
I’d rather be a ghost
Than not be good enough
I’d rather be a ghost
I’d rather be a ghost…