Anxiety

 Anxiety takes hold,

And suddenly you can’t breath.

Your heart starts beating

Faster and faster until you're faint

And the shakes start to show

As your thoughts attack

your already weak soul.

 

You struggle for your calm,

Self-medication is the key.

Smoke half a pack of cigarettes,

Down a cappuccino

And run, run away from everything.

Hide from the world until you’re normal again.

 

If you ever were.

 

Scream—it helps the breathing,

For whatever reason.

 

Write—it gets the thoughts with claws

To stop their assault on your mind.

 

Alone—being alone is important,

It gives you time to hide the shakes.

 

Then, as if nothing ever happened

Go back to life.

The worst is over,

Your mask of calm is back.

And no will know what a mess you are,

Because that’s even worse than the attack itself,

 

Pity…

It kills what little strength you have.

Reviews

[bluessadmood]

very strong and sad writing..anxiety..
yes it helps
to write have a smoke ..scream a bit
but it always aches.. no matter
it tears at your heart
warn you down..you resist ,lots of fight inside..
but will lead you nowhere ..i know the feeling
Alone-being alone is important,
It gives you time to hide the shakes.
Then, as if nothing ever happened
Go back to life.
The worst is over,
Your mask of calm is back.
And no will know what a mess you are,
Because that's even worse than the attack itself,
Pity ..yes it kills the little strength you have
very nice writing ..i like this type of writing,i enjoy it..ha ha
wonderful write..

[Delilah Dunn]

Yet again, a great depiction of a common emotion, one that I, myself, have a lot of experience with. The only criticism I can offer is that there are a few minor grammatical errors that could be fixed with just a bit of simple proofreading. As for the piece itself:
As usual, your imagery is amazing and your thoughts are honest and open. I also love your "outlets": screaming, writing, and being alone to do so; these are outlets that are quite helpful and I am speaking from personal experience. Thanks for the great read.

[Adela Muresan]

Woha, this is a very good description of the state of anxiety.
I have a poem too on this theme... only it's more anbiguous. Anywayz you reflected your emotions well here ---> good write.

A.M.