Disdainful LieA Poem by mi-chanwhen the truth doesn't come easyI feel... lost, broken in a weird sort of way torn between options of lives that I could easily live.
On one side there's normality or the closest thing to it. a social life friends always around sport games and flirtatious boys a life of school fun.
Then there's my freaks my circle of trust always standing out a crowd of our own. None of us the same but all of us family bonding in the weirdest ways always being ourselves.
Or so most of us do...
Optimistic, pessimistic Kind, satanic Quiet, loud Nerd, freak. whatever side i'm on, no one gets the real picture i never am myself at least not truly.
I tried one day in my cirque du freaks to give a compliment to one of my friends something common on the other side that I knew made people feel good.
I just wanted to make them smile.
When I said she was pretty she gave me a look one eyebrow raised and asked who'd put me up to it.
I said nothing others around saying it must've been a dare laughing it off, they forgot not knowing I still stood hurt from the words not knowing the true meaning not knowing my other side.
When I look to the latter, the more normal of the two, I see laughter and friends many friends more than I thought I could ever be able to have. I saw a side where I could be loved have a relationship and could be my other self happily. But what if I slip? say one unusual phrase? I would never be able to return to my sweeter form of life.
Split between two sepparate personalities the cliche dark and light takes part in these masks.
And what about me? The truth lying beneath? Lord only knows, because I'm too worried about two false fronts.
But one thing is certain about that clandestine truth it's too cowardly to come out too fearful of the world too shy in its innocence to break away from the sturdy status quo.
How pathetic is that? © 2011 mi-chanAuthor's Note
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2 Reviews Added on May 21, 2011 Last Updated on May 28, 2011 Tags: poem, life, secret, split, personalities Authormi-chanSkiptopia, the voices won't reach me there..., FLAboutI like writing, reading, anime, manga, japan, yaoi, jmusic (not listing all the genres), drawing, volleyball, and many other things. I've been playing the piano for about 10, maybe 11 years now and ha.. more..Writing
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