i refuse to dream

watch on youtube

i refuse to dream

my monsters come out

during the day

always wanting to play

i refuse to dream

so i don't

they keep their space

always asking 

to come out and play

peacebutfukyaanyway

they always say

i have the key 

that locks the door 

keeping them at bay

my newest headshrinker

asks

do you still have ptsd

what kind of question

is that

it did not just disappear

we them and me

have a truce

they come out during the day

i get to keep them 

far away

i close my eyes 

for quick nap

never full sleep

only rest

knock knock knock

kind they can be

or ungodly one could say

hello hello

we want to play

peacebutfukyaanyway

they always say