dunno

i don't understand
wher did i go wrong
havent spoken to my mates
cant remm for how long
when they meet me
i feel like i am the best bud they know
but as soon as i turn my back
i don't kno where do they go?
what is it that repels them from me
i am sure i am worthy guy
worthy enough for them to stick by and be
do i tire them somehow
when i am with them i am sure its wow !
but i rarely am missed
that so often gets me pissed
i feel so emotionally drained
my ego hurts and gives me most pain
it would be justified
if atleast i was a geek
i am not even boring
neither am i weak
i am so clueless and aggitated at the same time
i am not even able to express it through this rhyme
i know all the tips and all the tricks i can pull
is it becauses i myself am finding myself dull?
what if i just start living for my own
will it change things
will my misery be gone
so many questioned unanswered
i know i can hack it in life
but deep down inside
i know i just want power and pride
want people to know me
call me when they see me
instead of going to a corner and hide
my life is mixed bag of feelings
my ego wont let me sulk
nor look like a weakling
i guess i intimitade most people i know
ahh f**k it
i think its time for me to go..!!