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if life is all dark and grey
why is it that we are here to stay
if things are not what they seem to be
how can you ask me to see
how do i kno which is night or day
when is the right time to play
are these questions leading me somewhere
to find out the truth, why do i care
what reason was i put on this holy earth
am i really dying, or is it a new birth
what is this song in my head
doesnt carry a tune, the harmony is dead
but is still so loud and echo in my dream
its numbs by brain and makes me wanna scream
my body seems to have lost control too
its seeks new bonds, everyday a connection new
is there any purpose or goal it has defined
is there anyone whom i can dare call mine
whose warmth is it that i need to share
whose face in the night i long to stare
where is the soul that will put me to rest
put me to sleep and build me a nest
am i harmful or going down the drain
is there an outlet for letting out this pain
nasty things and devilish thoughts haunt me day and night
try to pull me away, there's such a constant fight
a side of me wants to be so extreme and thinks only in lust
wants to explode and turn everything into dust
just some things that hold me back, my strings
makes me think what foolish people will think
wanna yell and scream and tear about
wanna rock and shock and bare no doubt
wanna learn and earn and live my life so free
wanna show the finger and ask the world to be
stay away , dont come near or i'll kick ur lil a*s
need a new high, smoke some pot, lay on that green grass
push the limits here i go stop me if u can
breathe in breathe out, live in live out, thats my new plan....