My Sweet Love Letter to You [finished]

My precious love, you deserve more than you’ve received. You deserve so much more than this. You are worthy, m’love! 🍓🌱

Actually, I think of it more like love ! Like every thing and everyone I have ever loved wrapped inside my heart but everyone can see it. All the warm feelings the dizziness my mind and heart have felt when I see a squirrel or a birch tree or a pinecone or a cloud and every broken heart I've ever had being healed over time, slowly, where I get what I deserve which is love.

And after all this time I finally get it without any strings attached without me having to ask for their love or their eyes to be on me even for a second�"they just do it because they love me that much, because they like me that much, because they tolerate me *that* much because they treat me like I'm a person, a human, someone or something that is real. Like I have feelings that can and have been hurt so they actively, every breath they take, try to make me feel like I'm worthy of not just their love but any love.

As I navigate myself through such a broken childhood and am being pushed (sometimes not by choice) myself into this adulthood of “nobody has ever loved me but I'm not allowed to say it”, they know and they delicately and gently kiss my forehead and let me fall asleep on their shoulder as they caress my head and play with my hair knowing the kind of love I need and needed when I was younger was gentle and kind.

Not the tough love people say you need and that we don't want. I need kindness in love. I need “I have my own life but God I kept thinking about you and I just want you to be okay” kind of love and the “I called because I wanted to hear your voice” and the “you make me so happy, I just saw a flower and thought of you and I wanted you to know that” type of love.

This is the kind of friend I need. This is the type of gentle partner I need. Sweetness like honey🥹🩷and I will have that person in *me*, and someday I'll meet someone who can be that for me, too 🩷🩷

Author's Note

I just really hope you like this ☺️let me know, please!