Story Of My LifeA Poem by Ashley MarieI'm never allowed to go outside my mom would rather me stay home all the time I just want to be a normal teenager and hangout with all my friends I've lost people because I wasn't able to see themI hurt deep inside but many dont know
I still cry sometimes but dont let it show
No matter how happy you are you still get depressed
U kno how it feels when u dont wanna get up to get dressed
The bad thing is theres only a few things that make me happy
My boyfriend my friends everything else is pretty crappy
I have only one best friend that I get to see
Even with that one friend she barley sees me
Its not that I'm lazy and dont wanna go out
But I have an overprotective mom that likes to shout
I dont see my sisters seems like family's not really there
Friends say there here for u but when u need help they dont really care
My brother doesn't understand how his words affect me the way that they do
I know he says it out of anger but sumtimes it feels like a knife that cuts through
I've never really had a dad the person that was closest to one is gone
You feel its your fault but its not,I haven't seen him in so long
I have found more then one friend that lies and back-stabs
You know what I hope the same happens to u and you get crabs :b
Just kidding everyone makes mistakes its human no matter how wrong
But its hard to stay strong when you have been for so long
I've dropped the people I needed to yea it was a hard thing to do
But I cant deal with the lies and backstabbing so your now friends I once knew
Miss my old friends moving alot is hard trying to keep connections with ppl u cant see
But I guess the past is the past and that's were memories are meant to be
Why is it when I was little I had more freedom then I do now
I don't do half the things others do but I still get accused of it..how?
I feel like I'm a prisoner but not in bars trapped in my own home
Seems like while everybody else is out having fun I sit here all alone
I've shed so many tears I still have the stains on my face
But there invisible you wont see them not even a trace
It's amazing how much a person can hide inside
You judge them not knowing what they've been through, taking away their pride
Its not that I'm complaining I'm just expressing myself you see
Sometimes a soul needs to explain themselves and set their heart free
If you dont your'e emotions are just going to bottle up
One of these days you wont be able to take it you'll blow up © 2012 Ashley MarieAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on April 23, 2012 Last Updated on April 23, 2012 Tags: Stuck, Depression, crappy life, trapped in the house, can't be myself AuthorAshley MarieNHAboutI'm sort of a beginner in all this I'm looking forward to improving my talents as a writer more..Writing
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