habits

creature of habit
lover of patterns
love the idea more than the reality
fall colors look better in my head
than they do on snowy streets
crumpled up leaves sprawled by dirty feet
forgotten about as they fall so easily
i fall too easily maybe

i want to give the world to you
take the sadness out of you
take it by the horns
scoop it out with my hands
bury it in sand
i just want you to understand
i loved the idea of you
when did you stop wanting my hand

left to my own devices
i tend to turn to my vices
start to think the worst
like the idea of being hurt
it’s been a cycle i’ve learned
pain is something i recognize
i’ve seen the longing in their eyes
i’ve seen it leave when i refused to compromise
i’ve been doing that my whole life
i wish you’d continued to waste your own time
trying to take up all of mine

it’s always just a glimpse
a flip of a switch
it feels so sudden but maybe it was eroding
for longer than i could see
my wings are made from simple things
scraps and pieces i thought i’d need
old letters i’d never let them read
why does letting go feel so free
you held my hand and felt my lips
and now we don’t even speak
i wish you were still a little needy

love is mean
it can give you everything and leave you
grasping at something, anything, fleeing
the scene
why were you running?
what did you see in me?
i see the beauty in how your eyes compete with a summer sky
and how they win every single time
now i’m scrambling trying to find out why
it’s just me when i used to think you could be mine
i wonder when that will subside
everything in time

Reviews

[Serendipity Planet]

I love your words
Beautiful
i want to give the world to you
take the sadness out of you
take it by the horns
scoop it out with my hands
bury it in sand
i just want you to understand
i loved the idea of you
when did you stop wanting my hand