indifferent

i moved to a new city
to escape the memory
i couldn’t stand the thought of it
going down every busy street
we used to drive down
you and me
how painful it can be to occupy a space
that someone used to fill
time stood still
and i’d still think of you, overkill

love has so much meaning
when it’s not asked to be seen
given with ease, so easy
i couldn’t stand the thought of you with them
but it was always going to be them
i had a dream you came back
and we were content
it never had to end
letters i’d never send
for fear you’d be irreverent

i don’t think it would make a difference
so i wasn’t completely honest
i never told you how much it hurt
your indifference
i stayed up for nights on end
cried in bathtubs filled with grief
wine glasses that took away the feeling
of being the second choice, an afterthought
when you were all i’d ever want
i thought you were it, but you stood there
indifferent

i look back at it all with grace
for the good times we got to create
they lie in an invisible locket
i keep them safe
i remember when i needed you
i can no longer relate
but i’ll still love you either way
you moved to a new city
you thought you were safe
but i’m on your mind everyday
because that’s just it
i was never indifferent