So It Goes

You said you'd outgrown me
I still remember how that felt
The moment I wanted to forget
The sinking feeling of an anchor
The tightness of my throat
The moment of silence
I stood with a shaky heart
So it goes

You talked about me as a person
Being someone bad, not good
Every thing you aren't
Basically as being not enough
For you
Surprise surprise why am I surprised
Why do I try to hide?
You always find me I always know
So it goes

With my heart on my sleeve
I let myself open up
I let you see every scar, every cut
Even the ones you were apart of
I held your hand through suicidal thoughts
Hiding the knives you swore you'd use
I held your broken heart, limp body
As you fell to the floor
And felt all the pain of the world at once
So it goes

And I know I hurt you
I know I can be negligent
I know I can be selfish
I know I'm not innocent
But you know as well as I did
That I was never the monster
Created in your head
So it goes

You said you loved me
That you couldn't lose me
But I guess it was easy
Easier than you thought it would be
Cause I'm gone
It'll be awhile till you hear my voice again
So it goes

And there's not a fiber in my being
That could ever hate you
That could ever feel the way you do
And we were so restless as kids
Never having an answer or an explanation for our behavior
Guess now much has changed
Why couldn't things be better?
I guess we'll never know
So it goes

Reviews

[KCthelastboyscout]

I call this a dope sick love.you think you need this relationship until you figure out its hurting you.well written describing your breaking heart in detail.sad to the end

[Annie Lane]

I really love this poem, it reminds me of a time in my life. I love the story it tells.