Confessions

Something I wrote a few months back about not being sure how to express love

And there’s nowhere else to go now

Staring over the edge of a cliff

If I fall into the waves I could drown

But if I turn back you’re the one who gets it

 

So lost, I’ve always been so lost

And every emotion is tied into a knot

Maybe I’ll hide away, try to pretend

Hiding behind bloodshot eyes and aggression

There’s nothing to do, nothing to say

 

Don’t let me be the one who hurts you

Believe me it’s not worth your time

Don’t let me become someone you knew

Because I will run before it becomes a thought in my mind

 

So lost, I’ve always been so lost

And every emotion hits me like a tornado

I guess this pride is all I got

I think this coldness is all I really know

Hiding behind bloodshot eyes and scratchy throats

There’s nothing to do, nowhere to go

 

And you’ll look at me,

And I’m not at ease

I can barely breathe

I will let you down, without a doubt

I’ve always been so scared,

Wishing this could be more fair

I wish I could say it was all in my head

But only one us falls over the edge in the end

 

So lost, I’ve always been so lost

Still not sure how to love and how to not

maybe I’ll hide away, write you letters one day

hiding behind bloodshot eyes and a false frame

there’s nothing to do, nothing to say

this is where we stay