Passion, Confidence and Creation

Confidence does not come easy, and it is a big process. I truly do not think anyone is ever 100% confident, and we are all learning as the days go on.

          The first time I walked into the kitchen, it was filled of busy workers. There were four boys, and my boss who is a woman. She kindly asked everyone to stop working so I could introduce myself. When they turned to face me, I immediately turned a bright shade of red. I hate being the center of attention or put on the spot. I was young and shy, basically afraid of my new coworkers. They all smiled at me and greeted me nicely, making me feel relaxed. I was sure they were not aware this was my first job. 

    

         As the night went on, I slowly gained confidence and talked to them. I  found out I had a lot in common with this boy named James. We talked about practically everything and I remembered enjoying the night as I washed all the dishes that were handed to me. I was actually happy I got to come back the next day and see him and all my funny coworkers. 

  

          I have never been an outgoing person. Even from the beginning of my life, I was shy and kept to myself.  Being confident never came easy to me. When I reached high school, I was so concerned about finding myself. I was worried about small pointless facts about myself that shouldn’t have mattered. I went through the motions hoping to find myself in the sea of people I thought were my friends. It wasn’t until after I turned eighteen I realized life is about creating yourself. So, I  tried to stop stressing about my flaws and what I could not change.

    

           James ended up asking me out, and I was shock. Someone wanted to date me?  I did not see what was so special about me. A tall, six foot one cute boy asking average me out on a date did not make sense in my self conscious mind.  I knew we hit it off when we talked for three hours in the mall parking lot after dinner. Conversation flowed so easily, and when I got home my cheeks were aching from all the laughing I did earlier that night.  Two and a half years later, he is still the only person who can make my cheeks hurt from laughter. Besides my best friend ,of course. 

    

         I would definitely say my first job experience changed me.  If I were to go back four years ago and meet myself as I walked into that kitchen, I probably would not even recognize me. I would never imagine my life was about to change.  

    While I may not be finding myself, I am still creating myself.  I do not think anybody ever stops creating themselves; they just have more experiences and wisdom. I do know that I will never hesitate to do something again. My first job experience has taught me that I never know what will come out of anything. What is happening around me at this very moment is apart of the process that is creating me

Author's Note

I had to write about a life shaping story in my nonfiction writing class last semester. I hope you can relate to this, and it also makes you smile.

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[JayceeC]

Its true that throughout our lives we are constantly being changed by decisions and events. Do we get wiser..hopefully
But mostly we have more to draw from. Welcome to the site! Jaycee