Ms. Ugly

It's about an insecure girl in a small messed up world.

So, i have been told.
A fable that has been unfolded.
People say im "cute" "pretty" "beautiful"
It's just a lie that i've been told.
My music is my Remedy.
But everybody takes that away from me.
You make me yell.
Screaming you better not tell.
I have blood running down my leg.
Telling myself constantly your beautiful.
And at the end I still feel horrible.
They tell me be more positive.
I try.
Pray more, and it will go away.
I do, but It hasn't.
Be patient they said.
Love yourself they said.
Care for others they said.
Your ugly they scream.
I hide my face.
I look in the mirror, and they are right.
Im fat and worthless I scream in pain, and still crying from yesterday.
When you told me You loved me.
And then back stabbed me.
Told me that I was pretty, then call me ugly.
Told me i was skinny to my face then called ne fat.
You told me You could show me the world.....
Then you put me down and called me baby girl.
You said I was perfect.
I stopped believeing.
I left.
I stopped in my tracks and back tracked.
And thought about us.
All the pain I went through.
The constant yelling and KILL YOURSELF THEN.!
I stopped listening to myself.
I finally realized that almost everyone hates me so that's that.
Im done.
I jumped the gun.
Running to the top of a building, and feeling the wind blow.
Stepping to the edge.
I ask god for forgiveness.
I jumped.
Screaming i hope everyone is happy.!
Turning on the tv.
Catch me on the news.
-andria clair allen
Words of a Freshman.

Author's Note

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