Bleakest winter skin

An angry angry petulant day where I wanted to burn the whole world down.

Haunted. Plagued

Visualising the tearing of feelings & memories from my skin

Violently ripping them still pulsing and bloody from my body

Banishing their existence

Screaming myself into submission

Silencing myself into oblivion

Delete. Delete. Destroy.

Sitting. Seated

Desperate to bolt down corridors & paths                   

Across planets & galaxies        

Fantasising about the escape into nothing

Beating myself into submission

Absorbing the blows into dust

Crack. Crack. Crushed.

 

Tearing. Torn

Intent on ripping my womb from its seat

Denying my womanhood to please you

Denying my motherhood to punish you

Denying myself to punish me

Denying all existence to punish everyone.

Reviews

[redalia]

i love the style of your writing in this. the use of language is very effective & conveys the emotion and the mindset nicely. the form also creates some sort of rhythm and a firm tone of voice, almost angry but i can also sense a tiredness. i could say more but i'll leave it at that. love it

[ashkat]

Oh, I love e your perception. The tiredness - of fighting. Of being angry. Absolutely. Thank you!!

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked how you use the language. You twist the language to worthwhile and powerful thoughts. Your words, hard, direct and true. No weakness in the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[R.E. Ray]

You certainly convey anger, but also frustration and pain. Still, as odd as it might seem, I took hope from your poem---because you wrote it. You took the time to capture the words, structure them, and share them for all of us. Thank you for sharing. It's a powerful piece.

[ashkat]

thanks for your feedback. I appreciate it. I've never really shared before though I have written constantly for about 25 years! It feels very... exposing. Scary.