he broke (up with) me

this wasn't hard to remember - it's played in my mind 40 gaZillion times

What a lonely, peculiar, eccentric figure i must be. A girl, in a garden, crying at an iPad, in the dark.

Earlier, at school...

It was a clear spelling out, like steel cuts thru fruit.

As he spoke he looked down and away, his gorgeous face blank and indifferent, as if I were wasting his time or he was talking to a child needing an obvious truth taught quickly.

When he finally looked back at me, I saw no pity in his impersonal, hazel eyes.

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think, I needed time to contemplate the universe's new laws.

Can a girl just suddenly die of heart-ache?? because I was sure my heart had stopped, locked and frozen.

Finally, I gasped in this impossible new air - the force of it made me hold the cold-iron stair railing - the game is rough.

He's so... male - all chase and careless passion - intelligent teaser, a skilled steersman of excited climates... Oh, you simply have no idea.

And now he was, gone, still there, but gone to me - as if he'd transformed into a hologram or had begun to orbit some other sun, he just...

"You made me feel special." I said.

I had lost my balance on this faithless and unequal world, where heaven so cruelly punishes desires.

"You made me feel I mattered, such a favor." I said, absentmindedly, as I turned, and went back up the three steps into school.

I don't think I looked back at him as the door closed. After all, he wasn't there any more.

I think he called my name, like a question...

Author's Note

all comments welcome

Reviews

[Patricia]

Wow this is well written, I felt like I was feeling this with you, that is the younger college me. I would like to pick out favorite lines but I would just be writing all of them. This was surprising because the title made me feel like it would be same old same old but nope, surprise! Good job

[anais.vionet]

Thank you so much =]

[Coyote Poetry]

No goodbye is ever nice. I had many in my lifetime and everyone of them left a scar somewhere. When words become worthless. Good to escape and find the sorrow alone. Thank you dear Anais for sharing your amazing words and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Kay/Hayden]

A very clever piece of writing! Although I don't think I would consider this a poem but rather a short story!