In the Night

i dreamed i was running to you
who knew my sorrow long before
i could articulate the words.
i dreamed i was always leaving 
the lovers who used me. i dreamed
of missing kitties. i dreamed of
colours always spreading watercolour
arms to fold me papoose style in 
subdued wonder. i dreamed of your
forgiveness freeing me from my
lonliness even if we could not
walk hand in hand, even if you never
said another word to me. i dreamed
of crystals shining rainbows. i dreamed
i cut the hair of samson and he 
thanked me. i dreamed i was awake
in a more vivid way. i dreamed i
swam in black vanilla tea. i dreamed
i was always just awakening.