Temporary pleasure

I've lost again. I have walked a different path.
I let myself drown in a temporary pleasure.
Too overwhelmed because of everything that just happened unexpectedly.

I've lost my grip on reality.
I've thought it's another way to see my winning moment. 

It seems I've pulled myself up into the darkness.
Worse comes to worst, everything that I'd been working on vanished.

And I ended up returning to God's way.
If I'm being honest, it is easier to say than done.
Maybe, I need to divert myself onto that route to awaken.

To live and try to obey and to love and believe
Where I am right now is designed perfectly by God's loving hand.

I'm just so naive to be in a rush to get where I meant to be.