dear dad

dear dad

Each day the thought of you saddens me, although I was only two years old

I have no recollection of your existence which breaks my heart.

I only know what people have told me, and most of what I hear is good

is that because they are afraid to tell me the truth?

life without a father has been hard, but just not knowing you has been harder

the thought of loosing you sometimes is worse then the event in itself

growing up I was in denial, thinking my dad will show up at the school gate

like all the others, but you didn't.

so dear dad, what about all the childhood birthdays you've missed

and what about my sweet 16th and my 18th

and dear dad what about my first holy communion and my confirmation

what about the first boy that broke my heart and got away with it

because you weren't there to kick his a*s

and dear dad what about the day I get married and the day I have children of my own

who is going to approve or disapprove of my husband to be

who is going to give me away

and who is going to be a grandfather to my children

dear dad

what about all the nights mom spent crying because you didn't put on your seatbelt

DEAR DAD