Piecing together my life

Ah, it was a normal day living the single life for a little less than 2 years, after a divorce in 2006 and the loss of my brother and sister n law in a tragic accident in 2007 when I met my husband. I worked at a local Ford Dealership in the service dept. and he was the tow truck driver that worked for the company we contracted with. Whom I had known for about 2 years before we ended up starting our fairy tell love story and still madly in love with him 8 years later.  At that point in my life I was a broken but yet a happy go lucky, strong-willed and positive 24-year-old who had endured so much pain throughout my short 24 years on earth. I came from a broken home of which consisted in violence, watching my mother get beat daily and drugs my father had to have, which made him even more evil.  I left home when I was 15 years old after trying to protect my mother ended up getting hurt, which was ok because my mom had had enough, me and mom left that day, I was 15 years old and mom had been with dad for 25 years for the safe of us 3 kids, but now old enough to take care of ourselves, when she left she had no idea where she was going she just knew she had to leave there, she ended up in another abusive relationship where this man almost killed her, he was a lifelong friend of theirs, he ended up beating her almost to death after about a year went by and he started to doing drugs, the night he beat her so close to death afterwards he put her in the trunk of his car and drove a couple miles in the boone docks and threw her out in a ditch to just die, somehow she had the strength to crawl to a house where she seen a light on and they let her in and called the ambulance, I picked her up from the hospital a couple days later when they released her, she had 3 broken ribs, broken nose and lip and half her ear was sewed back on, he had bitten it off, black eye and a broken collar bone, it felt as if I was living a lifetime movie playing out in real life and mom was the victim, my heart broken. He was a big 300 pound man and mom was 100 pounds soaking wet, I brought her to a battered woman's shelter where she lived for a few months and finally got her a trailer whom she rented across the street of the man who owned it and whose is now her amazing loving husband and my awesome step dad, they met and he swept her off her feet, finally thank God mom is safe and being loved the way she had desperately needed a deserved and I had a man that was more like my dad than my father had ever been and they are still in love 10 years later.   When I had left me and my boyfriend whom is now my x husband ended up getting a small apartment with, we both worked full time jobs, no children just a few bills, back then rent was only 325 a month and didn’t have many other bills, probably about 800$ a month, oh how I loved those days where cost of living wasn’t so high, to where me and my new husband own our own business and looking at about 25k a month in bills and have been in business for over 6 years, we own our own towing and recovery business. but my x drove his truck and I rode my bicycle about 3 miles away to work, us only making min wage, I worked at a daycare center and he worked for a company that made glues and other type of adhesives, for about 3 years’ things were great then no longer after getting married drugs come into the picture and we went on a 3-year binge, one day I had enough of the drugs and desperately wanted to quit, which was a huge struggle so we ended marriage and divorced in 2006.  I landed that job at the Ford dealership as the cashier in the service dept. shortly before our divorce. I always seemed to be successful in life regardless of all lives hurtles thrown my way, a positive and motivated girl in her 20's who had no children and rocked as a service advisor once I got promoted after about a year in the cashier cage. So back to the love of my life, We had known each other for years before we ended up together, he had tried to get me to go on a date with him for about a year, but at that time in my life I was so not ready for a relationship, I lived on my own, had a new car, paid my own bills, supported friends and my father as he was serving a 10 year sentence, I must say his Karma had caught up with him, he is back in prison serving a life sentence from which he collected throughout many felony charges the 3 years he had lived in the society.  I no longer have nothing to do with him and have not spoken with him in years, I was by far ready to be in another relationship any time soon. I become a very independent 24-year-old making the money that some college kids don’t even make, I was truly blessed with this job and ended up being the highest rank service advisor there was in our town and also the warranty administrator. For the first time in my life I had lived alone, I’d never been alone, I left home and had my x husbands and his family whom which they were truly wonderful, a blessing from God, showing me and giving me the opportunity to live a better life and not be on drugs or be beaten by a man, so when I finally left him it took a lot of courage to go through with it, I was petrified by fear of being alone, but my faith in God seen me through it all again and I did it and surprised so many people who said she won’t make it no where’s in life considering where she came from and esp. my younger sister who hated me because of my success I’ve made and the life I lived, she is a drug addict as my father was, I take after my loving sweet mother, thank you Jesus, I often joke at her and ask her about my father being my real father, she laughs and says to me, I honestly wish I could say he wasn’t but baby but he is, no questions asked and I believe her. I’m forever grateful God spared one of us for the sake of my mother whom ended up at the scene of the tragic car wreck that killed my brother and his wife, it was on the road they live on, a curvy gravel road, my brother had lost control and ping ponged off the banks of the road and ended up in the field after flipping 2 times, my mom tells me the flashbacks she gets from seeing him dangling out the door window and his wife leaned over the dash. She suffers from severe depression and PTSD still to this day. I still suffer from the memories of when we got to the hospital and the helicopter landed and we was rushed into a family room they had at the hospital, waiting patiently for the dr to come and when he did we could tell by the look on his face it wasn’t good, I was standing by my mother who was sitting in the chair, when the dr started with the words I’m so sorry they did not make it, instantly I dropped to my knees and laid over my mom’s lap as tears and screams saying no God no bless lord no, we was able to go back there and see then and when we did it was the most tragic thing I’ve ever seen and watching my mom endure so much pain again in her life tore my heart into pieces, 9 years later it still feels as if it was yesterday. I wished my husband could have met him, I know he would have loved him and I know he is shining down and so proud of who I am today. The love of my life is the most incredible man I have ever met or known, he treats me like his princess literally, I’m spoiled with so much love and appreciation like I’ve never felt before, he finally got me to where I ended up calling him in 2008 and took him up on his offer and he came to my apartment and that first kiss I instantly knew this was the man for me, he has an evil x wife who is very money hungry and has turned his 3 daughters against us, but we ended up getting pregnant in march of 2010, the month we get married, start our business and two days into our honeymoon he convinced me to take a pregnancy test which I opposed to because I had taken so many I didn’t want to waste our time worrying about that, well we ended up at a Walmart in Pensacola, FL where we was on our honeymoon at and I’m in the bathroom and screams "baby, this thing says I’m pregnant" he came running and bent over and seen it and the look on his face instantly turned red and he muttered "omg omg" we are going to have a baby, he then stopped with a concerned look on his face, I asked what, what’s wrong? he said to me so sadly please don’t let this come between us, as his x wife did, she treated him like he was dirt all the while giving her the life style of the "Joneses" I looked at him and said I would never do that, we are having a baby, by that time I thought and was convinced I couldn’t have children and was completely ok with, I’m very OCD so the thought of having kids was not for me lol.  His purposely to me was like a dream, so romantic and loving, we had a small wedding, started our business with 1000$ and a tow truck we were given, now 8 years later we are living a dream that we made come true by being able to start his own towing business which recently has sparked my writing passion. We are as in love as we were back then, he’s my best friend, my rock the love of my life’s