A Single Hope

Sometimes I feel lonely.

Like I am not good enough for you.

I see how insanely perfect you are

And how disturbingly I am not.

I try so hard and get nowhere.

To me, you are a dream come true.

It hasn't been long, but i know

You're the kind of person I want to be with.

Sometimes I feel scared.

Scared to let you know how I feel,

How scared I am of being forgotten.

How scared I am of losing you.

You keep me going and make me feel like me.

I have so many fears

I couldn't even begin to write them all.

Sometimes I have doubt.

So afraid you don't want me.

I'm scared that you havea  doubt in us

That we can never be.

We are so opposite, So black and white,

So not meant to be.

This is what I'm scared of.

I'm scared to fall in love.

I've dont it before and my heart shattered.

I hate that feeling with a passion.

I couldn;t possibly go through it again.

I can not, I will not.

I've asked God to let me know,

To give me a sign and tell me if this is how it should be.

I dont want to hurt you and i don't want to be hurt.

I do not want to fall in love if it is not in Gods will.

In Gods' timing.

If I should not love you, I do not want to.

I care about you more than you could ever know.

But behind all my pains, Behind all my fears and doubts

I have hope.

A hope that some day god will tell me yes.

A hope that some day I am able to love you.

Author's Note

Ok......Another one I wrote in high school. The story behind this is I met this boy at church camp but he lived in a different state than I did. So I cared about him and wanted to be with him, but I didnt want to get in too deep if he wasnt in it for the long haul. but who IS at that age right? lol. Another one to feel free and tear apart. I kow its long so i should probably shorten it up a bit. Honest opinions here thanks

Reviews

[Chris38]

I wouldn't dream of tearing it apart, it's wonderful. I love the naiivety of it and the simple feelings in it. Amazing.

[Autumn Reign]

Absolutely Beautiful !

[GreenSkeleton16]

this sounds like my thoughts on the big screen.
good poem keep it up

[littlelilypurplebride]

I agree with D S Rollings i love it beautiful. god bless lily

[E.H. Monroe]

Since I have been newly blessed with woman parts and transformed for the betterment of understanding the female view on things I saw two things (which almost make me mad because I hate blurbs on poems and wanted to guess myself)

A. This is the spitting image of other teen style writings, just in a better form, and the problems are still the same 10 years ago as they are today. That's one for the social shrinks yeah?

And two, the love always goes one way. Men are twisted mirrors of the god who bore them. And just when you try and walk away they love you again. This is called the Trampoline effect. Makes ya wanna go back and take a swat at the past don't it?

Reading this makes the good guys cringe and kick squirrels as another one lost and the bad guys say "I've met a ton of those"
Thanks for sharing

[D S Rollins]

I don't think you should lose anything, maybe just break it up into stanza's? Because it's beautiful the way it is.. tells a love story of two people far apart. *tear* So heart felt. :)