Yet another painful coincidence

Catharsis

 

 

Dear You,

 

I don’t know why this keeps happening. Again and again.

Why do you keep coming back into my life in some form or the other?

 

Not that I hate that. I love every one of those moments that brings with it something related to you. It touches me deeply. It hurts me badly and yes, the wound speaks to me. It tells me how much you loved me. At the same time, the pain I experience then, seems too much to bear. Sometimes I fear it will take my life before I do. And yet I’m willing to go through this pain a million times more because it is through this pain that I can still feel you.

 

I happened to come across your brother today. I was introduced to him through a common acquaintance. He didn’t know who I was…how I was related to you. We just exchanged polite hello’s. I couldn’t get myself to look at him directly. I was afraid to.

 

They talked about you and I listened intently. I didn’t hear myself say a single word. Unknowingly they updated me with the recent events of your life – the struggle, the progress, the anticipation of your success…

 

Silently and secretly, I wished the best for you.

 

Worst was the fact that that your brother’s tone, accent, voice- were all similar to the tone, accent and voice, that my heart still beats for. Yours. His mannerisms seemed familiar as well. It took some effort to fight back the tears for it was a long time before I could find some privacy.

 

This sudden incident has now added to my treasure of memories. A treasure that I will preserve as long as I live…or else I will have no reason to live.

 

Love,

Me.

 

Reviews

[C. Harter Amos]

Reading this was like reading a page of your diary; intensely personal and full of your heart and soul. Very pain filled as well. I've treasured the misery of a situation because it added to the memories, the knowledge of what the person I loved was doing. Just to stand near the same flesh and blood as the person I still love. I actually dated brothers for a similar reason with a disasterous end. You make it all very real and very painful. These words, "Sometimes I fear it will take my life before I do. And yet I'm willing to go through this pain a million times more because it is through this pain that I can still feel you." really tore at my heart. I wonder how many women feel this way? I'm sure it's writing that many can relate to. Kudos.

[Ladysue]

Wow, this is very deep and personal. It brought a tears to my eyes. It is very beautiful. The love you feel that you never want it to leave. This line nearly made my heart stop....

And yet I'm willing to go through this pain a million times more because it is through this pain that I can still feel you.

It is such a powerful emotion. You have expressed yourself with such grace and it shows just how much love you felt...still feel.

The last lines are so heartfelt and I can relate to them. They are simple beautiful!

A excellent piece that touched me.

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is deep, personal, sad and yet so beautiful.
The style of writing is very similar to some of your previous works and as a regular reader, I can easily relate this one to them, this is indeed seems like a sequel to "Another letter...."

Well, firstly the style of writing is purely brilliant and you have not written just words but have written your emotions so effortlessly!


This is a very personal piece of writing and a reader can feel whatever you felt and gone through at that time. Life is indeed full of unexpected incidents and every time when we will try to run away from some memories, this life intentionally brings those memories right in front of you.
It is strange, how these memories can surround you from everywhere in a lonely place and how they can leave you hollow and alone even while when you are surrounded by crowd.

"At the same time, the pain I experience then seems too much to bear. Sometimes I fear it will take my life before I do. " - This is according to me, the darkest part of the entire write. As it is just so full of sorrow and pain.

You know, I faced an incident not exactly like this, but somehow similar .About 6 months after when I and that someone special opted for different ways, I met a very good and old school friend of her in a mall and she was not aware of the fact that me and her are no more together, so she was like asking hundred questions about her. That really was a very embarrassing moment for me...and when I told her the reality, she was totally unwilling to believe it! But then, it is one of those incidents which I will remember for a very long time.
Just like, as if I'm sure that this incident also will not wash from your memory ever.

A treasure that I will preserve as long as I live�or else I will have no reason to live. - Wow! What a beautiful line and such a perfect way to end a deep writing like this.

Great work, as always.....

Simply awesome!!!