Another letter to you

 

Dear You…

 

 

I have spent the last 18 months of my life without you. But I don’t think I have spent a full 18 seconds without thinking about you.

I don’t have to try very hard to find you.

 

No matter what I do, where I go, and who I meet – the one thing that’s constantly on my mind is you. I am convinced that I cannot separate myself from you because you are a part of me.

 

I miss the future that I had imagined with you. Don’t get me wrong…you’ve given me enough love to last a lifetime, beautiful memories to help me go through what is left of my life but these memories are a grim reminder of the future that I cannot have, the life that will not be the way we’d imagined it to be.

 

But I don’t have to try very hard to find you.

When I go through your old mails and letters, I can hear you reading them out to me.

When I leave home every morning, I know…I just know, that I’m going to get a glance of you somewhere along the way. My mind creates these illusions so that my body can live.

When I look at my small hands, I remember how they used to fit into your large hands and the way you used to play with my nails. I can feel that gentle touch.

 

I don’t have to try very hard to find you.

Because you are in every place I go to and everywhere I look.

Around me and within me.

 

Whoever had said that time heals all wounds, wasn’t talking about love. When you love truly, you don’t get over it. Simply because you don’t want to.

 

You had said that with time I’ll be able to forget you, find someone else…

But you overlooked  a simple fact. The love that I carry with me is yours. My heart is so full of it that there isn’t room for any other..

 

As long as you don’t close one chapter, you cannot begin another. And when the person is someone as special as you, one doesn’t want to put the past behind.

 

For now, it seems judicious to carry on with your memories. At least, I don’t fear losing them.

 

Love,

Me.

 

Author's Note

Just letting the thoughts flow ... whichever way they want to flow...

Reviews

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is exceptionally brilliant! I have gone through it like 5 or 6 times and I still want to read it again and again...I'm totally speechless after reading this!
I know you won't believe it but I literally shed a tear after reading it, because this is exactly what I feel...It is just the same emotions which am I feeling now and no one can get in their way!
The repetition of the line "I don't have to try very hard to find you." is imparting a very nostalgic effect on the entire write! And I agree, you are even not required to try to find him, because the fact is that he is still with you...with your soul, with every moment and with your each and every writing.

"When I look at my small hands, I remember how they used to fit into your large hands and the way you used to play with my nails. I can feel that gentle touch."

This is very personal and I can highly relate myself with it, the girl with which I was in a relationship once said a quote while I was holding her hand which was somehow like - "You know why there are these spaces and gaps between our fingers...So that someday, someone will come to fill these gaps by holding us forever..."

And just after when I read this line from your work, that memory came up on my mind...So, I just thought of writing about it! As that is the main reason for which I felt so emotionally strong for it!


"When you love truly, you don't get over it. Simply because you don't want to.

I also felt very strong for these words too, because they are very practical and real! This is what life is all about where we not always have happy endings!

The closing section is also simply awesome and I can think of it better...As I was literally speechless after reading it!



"Time can make a feeling fade� But the memory of a first love never fades away."

[BABSIE BEE]

I can,t tell you how much I love this poem. It's very emotional and truly apt. My eyes are full as is my heart. I can sooooo relate. Thank you so much for sharing !!
Babsie Bee xx

[OceanTropic]

This reminds me of my ex boyfriend. This letter depicts everything he has ever told me. Reading it just brings tears to my eyes, because in this case, he is you. I know I will be loved by him no matter what I do or where I go, and this letter is a reminder of him. I can feel him when I read this. It brings him back to me.

Thank you.

[Frank Terino]

This is beautifully done and quite emotional, reads as a love letter scribed as a timeless tapestry of desire.
I'm sure many can relate to the passionate meaning, Reminds me of my own past loves and successes in life.
I enjoyed reading the touching depth and sincerity, keep up the great work!

[Angel Baby]

Such beautiful thoughts, I truly found it such a pleasure to read your write. I thank you for sharing it.

[Kevin Andros]

This peice is better than the last one! The reader won't know that the writer and the reader is the same person unless they read the whole of it! And is awsome! Bhavya is right, I also read this at least 4-5 times and still wanting to read it again and again and again. Is great. Keep writing. ~KA~

[Izzy]

This is...breathtaking...
I don't think I have ever read anything so close to what I felt like back then...and here I thought no one else understood.
This piece is amazing. I love every line and I can feel so much emotion in every word.
Absolutely amazing.

[T]

Your heart flowed words touch my heart so deeply! You moved me to tears with beautiful letter ... hugs