Fours years ago

Page from a diary

 

Dearest You,

 

Four years ago, on this very day I wrote to you for the first time about “us”

I wrote that we could have a life together, that I will give it all I have. I heard from you after 6 days. You were ecstatic, thrilled…it had taken almost a year to get a positive response from my end.

 

I, on the other hand was no longer apprehensive. I had no reason to fear because I had finally accepted what you meant to me and I’d decided upon taking this path, knowing that every hurdle, every obstacle along the way was worth it because at the end of the journey, I would find you.

 

Things were lovely for sometime. Blissful, like I had never imagined. Though we spent most of that period, miles away from each other, I never felt I was far away. You didn’t let me feel that ever. How could I, when thoughts of you didn’t leave me alone for a moment?

Through those many months, I poured my heart out in unimaginably lengthy letters to you …I wonder what you must have done with those pieces of paper that you held so close to your heart. On your part, you never failed. You never failed to tell me what I meant to you. I never imagined so much happiness was possible until you happened to me. But when life seems to be going great, you must tell yourself that something terrible is coming up. I didn’t know this bitter truth then.

So I didn’t see the end coming.

 

It came and went. Sucked the life out of me. Looking back, I regret the fact that things didn’t work out like I wished it would. But I’m thankful because I got to spend sometime with you. You’ve given me precious memories that I will cherish forever. These memories are what I’m living for. The fear of losing your memories makes me want to wake up everyday. Yes, I live for them.

 

Although, your uncritical acceptance and irrational belief in me is something that I have failed to understand, I know that I’m better for having known you.

Thank you for that.

And thank you for loving me.

 

All my love,

Me.

 

Reviews

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is what I call LIFE!!!
And trust me, this happens with many people...whenever you're in love with someone, you feel on cloud number nine...Isn't it a great feel to talk with the stars, taking promises about forever and everlasting love till eternity but...Since all good things come to an end!
So...one day, all of a sudden...you come into reality, realizing the fact that you were living with a lie before and there are no "happy endings" in real life!
But as it has been said that - "The best thing is this world is to love and to be loved by your love, the next best thing is...just to love..."
And no matter, wherever you go, or whatever you do...But deep within your heart you will always cherish those memories...
The only regret is....that in these past four years, you have lost the most important person of your life and that's not him...but that's you...
For what you were and...for what you are....

[BABSIE BEE]

This also is beautiful with a hint of sadness which will never totally be overcome. You are both strong and weak and because of this you have produced such a lovely piece for us to share...Thanking you for that.

Babsie Bee xxx

[C. C. Burl]

Sweet, and true. Thank you for sharing, I enjoyed it. What a special piece of writing. Flora.

[snakesy_monkey]

I could really relate to your writing. Sometimes when you are going through things in life, you think you are the only one. It often takes another person to make you realise and remind you that you are not alone.....