I should just quit thinking

sometimes the mind wanders

Whenever I think
of losing you,
my mind reels --
defiant possibilities ...

I would survive,
of course,
and litter
the path
with the corpses
of men I use
to forget you ...

but mostly, I feel
that you
would be
the one losing.

Author's Note

Reviews

[aLittlePain]

This is incredibly moving, and reads so easily. It's crude but simply said, I appreciate that greatly.

Ngā mihi maioha
Rach x

[Lyn Anderson]

I am not one who cloaks my thoughts in much. Thank you.

[aLittlePain]

What wise words

[barleygirl]

I always love your brutal honesty, becuz it doesn't come across as mean-spirited or overly-dramatic or like a pity party. It's just stating the facts in a realistic way. Love that about your hard-hitting messages. This one reminds me of how I feel about people who don't even deserve to enjoy my newfound love of writing.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you. That is how I try to live. Honestly. Less drama. Good for the soul, realistic for the heart, nourishing the rest of me. I'll give you the shirt off my back, but I can walk away naked and go buy a new one. :)

[barleygirl]

Good one! (((HUGS)))

[Kesha]

I'm not sure why but this left a lump in my throat. More likely because I feel the same about my husband. This is a wonderful piece. As always however.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks, I appreciate that. And yes, I get it.

[Kesha]

You are welcome

[Kenneth The Poet]

Old saws just need a bit of TLC in order to cut forever.

[Lyn Anderson]

I see. I shall take that under advisement.

[Kenneth The Poet]

You did great here. I mean that.

[GreenShoes]

This is quite powerful; I like it very much. That second stanza is wonderful. :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks for popping in. This little thing seems to be more than what I thought when I penned it.

[redzone]

I would agree, he would be the one who would lose, not in some kind of game, but in the inability of knowing and being with you... of sharing with you a life adventure...

I realize it is metaphor and all, to make it a more intense statement of what it would mean to you if he left, (and it does KL it really does) but you know KL I just cannot image that you would leave corpses littering the road in order to get over him... maybe his corpse, but from reading you, and even with your over thinking and past experiences, your heart is not like this... it will break and you will cry and feel empty, but not take it out on anyone else... sorry if I have stepped on your poem KL...

sometimes too thinking in preparation does either of two possible things: one is that it is the visceral reaction to what is happening, and two, it can also be a way to drive him away so you don't get hurt... both things are an indication of things not being that settled between two people... it is a hard place to be... and I am really sorry if this is happening to you KL.... you deserve better...

redzone

[Lyn Anderson]

Nothing bad is happening. It is my defense mechanism, that unfortunately is mostly on high alert all the time. Ask me to lunch? It's just lunch, but just in case, I ready myself ... nothing to do with the person on the other end, really, just me. :)

[V]

Reads so nicely thoughtful, I think you really caught my current mood, I can abs relate to it. Well-written, I think one of your bests.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks, I appreciate that. Well, it's just a thought, but one I keep as a shield, tucked in my back pocket, for self preservation.

[V]

I know this feeling. I think your thought differs a little from mine but it's similar. I especially like the part "litter the path with the corpses of men I use to forget you".

[Matching Socks]

This is such a powerful poem, wow.
Littering corpses... That's a powerful image.
And bam, strong finish, because that proves who you are.
Strong and confident. No one wins but someone loses more.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks. Ah, I guess I should quit thinking, but maybe not today.:)

[Matching Socks]

don't quit, maybe just a coffee break. Or a kit kat.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i wonder, reading this....think back on people i left, and those who left me...and wonder if ever anyone wins....i think we all just try to survive...and keep our hearts afloat.

j.

[Lyn Anderson]

You are right about that -- but some of us are more capable than others in finding something good on the other side.

[David Scott]

Oddly, you are right about who is loosing. Yet it seems you still care. Case in point.
There isn't getting over a true love. There is only being open to more; to expanding and growing, and yes, always thinking. Ha.

[Lyn Anderson]

It is a curse. I have this habit of poll vaulting forward and presupposing, just in case ... it is a weird self-defense mechanism after getting burned enough times -- of course, his defense is pretending it's not happening at all, so we make a perfectly functional dysfunctional couple.:)

[Lyn Anderson]

that's pole, lol, man I hate not being able to correct myself without deleting the whole comment.

[David Scott]

Ha. I feel the same way. I have so many edits from using my I phone.
No worries.