something different

inspired by the song

pastimes

banging heads
against walls
isn't my favourite
pastime.

the more you
tell me
the more
I try

the more
something
inside me
dies.

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mind tricks

you have tricked yourself
into believing I won't go
because I care.
but that is
precisely
why
I wonder
if I should
stay

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in that moment you let your guard down I forget every doubt.
when you put it back up again, I double down.

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demons don't like to die

beating back her demons
with a rubbery stick
equilibrium is on the edge
of an unestablished continuum
of what might be.

Author's Note

you may think you know, but you might be wrong

Reviews

[Rene Salinas]

This is one of those situations that can become to enticing yet also have disastrous consequences. There is nothing like the feeling of attraction towards something that you know it is "good" for you or "healthy" or ultimately productive. But will we stop, no way because it so much fun that we will gladly continue. Warnings or recommendations will mean nothing if the experience is not lived and metabolised. Staring at the demons face to face then and embrace them.

Thankyou

[Lyn Anderson]

All of this was prompted by my frustrations with bureaucracy. I was on the phone waiting, thinking it was all like a very bad relationship.

[Matching Socks]

I think in this case you know exactly what you need to do.
Knowing and following through though, are not one and the same.
Most people back down when push comes to shove, but the courage builds over time, or until something snaps and we just go nuts. :) You and Rene should get together and head bang. Throw Rob in there too.
:D

[Lyn Anderson]

Yeah, Rene and I listen to a lot of the same music. Rob too. I twisted my knee running to BLOOD PIGS by Otep. I thought of Rene. I am just so caught up in the damned bureaucracy it's like your worst relationship, except you can't see the face of the person who just f*cked you.

[Matching Socks]

Time to take off the blind fold... Which it sounds like you've done.
Blood pigs?? Man... I'm clueless. :-) I'm listening to Ray Lamontagne right now.
It's pretty relaxing and relatively safe. Haven't twisted anything yet. Ego aside.

[Lyn Anderson]

Yeah, just heard Marilyn Manson's latest "Third day of a Seven Day Binge"-- not sure how come us old folk haven't stopped listening to the Heavy Metal Industrial Goth Death Metal yet.

[Matching Socks]

Lol! I don't know... I did crank Metallica the other day which is what inspired my heavy metal queen poem... But I'm not fooling anyone I don't think. :)

[Neville]

Interesting how folk interpret stuff, don't you think? A great write broken into four parts that whilst intrinsically linked may also be considered individually...Goode on yer.......

One might also be encouraged to consider less emotive stuff, don't you think N

[Lyn Anderson]

Ahh, I am just an emotional basket case. LOL. Seriously, though, I wrote this while on hold with yet another paper pusher -- they are soul suckers for sure, I think they get paid bonuses for that.

[willweb]

I usually think I know and I am usually wrong...so there is that.

A nice little gathering of thoughts and loud voiced emotions. i could hear you all the way over here. :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Yeah I know I am pretty loud sometimes.

[willweb]

What did you say?

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Interesting collection of pieces that portrays anger and hurt and fear and determination to fight back!

[Lyn Anderson]

yes sometimes bureaucratic nightmares feel a lot like bad relationships.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I know, I have been there, so love!

[Lyn Anderson]

Spending entirely too much time making futile phone calls and following up on useless advice.