one thing

there are things about ourselves we would like to alter

The EX
used to
tell me
I was like
a dog with
a bone.

I never really
knew what
he meant,
until I
watched
my dog.

Pick the bone up. Put it down. Pick it back up. Bury it. Look back.
Dig it up. Pick the bone up. Chew on it. Put it down. Pick the bone up ...

Once something
gets stuck
in my mind
I have a
hard time
letting it go.

I wish I could
put down the damned bone.

Author's Note

preoccupation's thought processes.

Reviews

[Lorry]

I feel your pain KL, sympathies to you. We all have our "quirks." Mines is too embarrassing to admit, but when the hell's that ever stopped me before. I am totally ocd about having 31 of everything clothes related, from t shirts and sweaters, to boxer shorts and socks...But the thing is, I really couldn't care less about how I dress. I'm kinda rockin' the hobo look right now. We are all but complex and strange little creatures.:)

[Lyn Anderson]

Yeah I only pick that particular bone up once in awhile now. I have new ones to pick lol

[Delmar Cooper]

Squirrels bury a cache of nuts then forget where they hid them. I notice that squirrels are not man's best friend or even slightly respected.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks. Umm. So ocd is squirrel like? Well, I don't really forget where I hide them. That's kind of the problem.:)

[Fran Marie]

We get used to the familiar and it is hard to let go...I can relate

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you, apparently writers are an obsessive lot:)

[MomzillaNC]

It's so hard to let things go, isn't it? We try and try, but keep coming back to the same old rutted, ruined tracks. I still struggle with the "dog with a bone" thing in my relationship with my mom. I think the reason I don't have the issue with my past romantic relationships is that I found closure, and joy. Best revenge isn't getting even. It's apathy for that shared past and living a happy now.

One guy (Shane), who betrayed me, came back, expressing my pain as his own, wanting to pick up and get back together. I already knew my husband, but we'd not begun dating. While Shane was standing there, apologizing and moaning about the pain he felt over the pain he'd caused me, I realized, I felt absolutely nothing… when I thought about the previous two years, about what I'd felt for him, I felt just empty. I found the eloquence to say to him, "What makes you think you were ever important enough to hurt me?"

He was flummoxed. He turned and walked away and I've never heard from or about him again.

My husband and I began dating not long after and were married just a few months later.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you for sharing. I am so like this with everything. I do need to learn to let go. I cannot even fathom loving or trusting someone to the degree where I would blend everything again. Good on you you found that.

[MomzillaNC]

I know I was incredibly lucky. But, I do believe it's possible to move on, to at least, achieve that apathy. That apathy strips them of all the power. My mom still has the power to set my teeth on edge, to send me into a rage, or into a black depression; I haven't found that point of apathy with her yet. But, I have found the power to set that aside until the next time; I used to go from one to the other, in a constant state of turmoil.

I hope, at least, while you're getting to apathy, that you may find a détente where he will not know he has the power left to hurt you.

[Rene Salinas]

I can adhere to this feeling one hundred percent. Not only that but at times lack of lseep because the situation still hasn't reached closure and the worse part of it all is that not many situations in life do reach closure.I guess that's why I am good at doing night shifts becuase in that way I can still think about stuff while I am working.

Thankyou

[Lyn Anderson]

I suppose that makes sense. I wish I could shut it off. It would be nice.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i guess i am like a dog with his bone too...because i too pick something up, put it down and then pick it up again...over and over until i have taken every last bit there is of whatever it is.

[Lyn Anderson]

Maybe that's a writer's thing, maybe it's OCD -- likely a little of both.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Its hard for some of us to let things go even when we know they are bad for us.Its just a fear of change I think.Stick to what you know I guess.As always your words touch me :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Long time no see my friend. Thanks for stopping in. Have some dragons for breakfast.:)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Lol.....I am off to read it now.I have missed you cat ,You are welcome :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Oh, man, I have only written about 40 poems since we last chatted. No biggie:)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Hahahahaha way to rub it in the face of the purple angel who can't write a line to save her life lol

[Lyn Anderson]

so not my intention. you should know that.:)xo

[Vidya Bacchus]

I know, just pulling your tail ,you should know that :)

[Matching Socks]

Yeah, I get this one.
On the bright side though, at least you didn't have a gun.
Because, well.... You know...

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, this is true. Thanks.

[Trace]

To know the bone is to own the bone.

To own the bone is to control the bone.

To control the bone is to know the bone.

I think you know what I mean.

HUGGS. .. Trace

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks. I hope. This is one of those things where something was interpreted a certain way, and it should not have been, and now I have angst over something that is totally not my doing, and nothing I can do or say is likely to mitigate the situation. Ahh, such is life and the weirdness that is me.

[Trace]

Sometimes you just have to let it go and move on.
A dog will worry over a bone untill there is nothing left.
That's what the saying means IMHO.