eventually

maybe,
who knows,
it may not
turn out to be
the ending
I thought
it would.

I keep
thinking
this is
probably
the last time,
and it
never is.

I just
can't seem
to invest
all of me.
I keep
hedging
my bets,

and saving
worthless pennies
for a rainy day.

I can feel you
on the edge
pulling back
at the last moment,
but never
surrendering,
just like me.

we are so different;
we are so much
the same.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Papaya]

the right time eventually comes but guarded hearts need to go through this little dance. I can understand this. :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you I appreciate all the reviews

[AprilRN1210]

letting go is one of the hardest things.. that level of vulnerability exposed... putting that amount of trust in someone after pain of the past puts those doubts in there isn't easy.. when you have two people who are the same in that aspect, jeez--makes for a sticky situation.. I can definitely relate to this one.. I pull back.. who knows is right!

[willweb]

Eventually, maybe, who knows, we'll see. KLGoode your poem screams truth though I would have heard it if it had whispered. My feelings, make up your mind, yes or no and let's get on with this. Your poetry always finds me when I least want to be found. Your thoughts are mirrors to what I think. I really enjoyed this today.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you so much. No wonder why we so relate to each others' writing.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

You definately understand. Perhaps you have pushed too hard for something he cannot give right now and maybe ever but is this the time to stop enjoying your freedom?

[Lyn Anderson]

Likely not. But I get in moods. What can I say?

[jacob erin-cilberto]

it is hard to give oneself totally again, when after the first few times...that self is misused...

and when two people the same get together...the pulling back is doubled...
it's like a game of cat and mouse...and neither takes enough of a chance to win...so both lose.

[Lyn Anderson]

I suppose that is true, thank you for reading and reviewing.

[icelandicblue]

It is hard to give yourself completely when you have been hurt so deeply. It is a difficult thing to trust so completely that you make yourself vulnerable to someone else. Protective shells have their uses and they are not easy to crack.

[Lyn Anderson]

That is for sure. Watching the turtle and the snail in slo mo is probably painful from the outside.:)