still in my head

an old love brought back to me by Noel's song suggestion.

I will never forget
who you were to me
or how much it hurt
when you didn't say
goodbye --

did you know
I ended up with him?
you are the reason
I ended up broken
and messed up --

all the times I picked up
the phone when I was alone;
the time the woman
on the other end said
"you just don't give up do you?"

You are the best
of the worst things
that ever happened to me.
and after all these years
your number is
         still in my head.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Einstein Noodle]

how can we stand the pain .. ????????? so grateful for poetry, music, art and dance ..and my children..grandchildren.. ok for my HD motorcycle .. and for sure the healthy days and nights.. ok then there are friends .. chocolate, coffee, breezes that whisper and moons that peek ... ;)

your poem just kills me inside .. so ... well done .. well done indeed!
E.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks. This is an old pain. Surfaces now and again. Used to be daily. For years. I am grateful it's not that frequent now.

[Einstein Noodle]

i know too well how that goes :( .. but survivors come out of it better prepared for whatever lies ahead .. we do become amazingly stronger .. at the core of us ;)
E.

[Hitchhiker]

Sometimes we just can't get those numbers out of our heads. I know I have carried them around for years. It is a sad, sad way to have to live, but it is going on even as we speak.

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, you are right, thank you.

[AprilRN1210]

isn't funny how some things just stick.. no matter how much you wanna shake em... this one gave me chills.. yea... ummm.. not sure how I feel about the way this one made me feel.. the writing is awesome as usual ma'am... but I be dang if you haven't taken me on a roller coaster today.. not sure if my emotions can handle it.. lol grrrrr

leaning towards psycho at the moment ma'am, and don't have many left.. haha.. :P

[Lyn Anderson]

Ha ha I know, I have some weird wanderings going on. And the latest I have for Noel will shock him. His song prompt gave me something totally unexpected.

[NoelHC]

He awaits, breathlessly.

[NoelHC]

Beautifully written, expressing that long lost feeling. The best I can say to this are the opening words to the song you chose, so fitting.
"Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time."

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks. There are some things that ache no matter how many years later. I often wonder if there is ever a pang on the other end. Who knows? I would rather not know, either way ...

[NoelHC]

Yup. Nuff said.

[Lyn Anderson]

BTW White hat, the next song on your list is up