denial

denial is an addict's best friend/enemy

Standing in line
at a quarter of nine
to score some shine,
it's your problem,
not mine.

I know we need groceries,
we'll buy them on time,
and the bank won't mind
if we're overdue,
by only a day or two.

She won't miss the money
right out of her bag,
besides she still owes me,
and she is always
such a nag.

Why does every
part of me ache?
maybe I should call
the doctor
about this shake.

Woke up this morning
covered in red,
no cuts on me,
whose blood could this be?
I wonder if he's dead.

20 years later here I sit.
if I ever had love, I don't remember it.

Author's Note

Reviews

[AprilRN1210]

there is some powerful imagery and emotion within the playful rhythm.... very affecting contrast ma'am.... well done... wheeeew... have to say the first two stanzas and the last one were my favorite... damn what a write... you are so dang talented... I love my visits to your page...

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks so much. I actually wasn't sure about this piece. It's too close for me to see it.

[AprilRN1210]

I can understand and know how that is... I say well done... and you know I am honest :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, I know are honest. I have been fooled a couple times in here, but not for long.

[AprilRN1210]

me tooo. I am learning...

[Rene Salinas]

Addiction is a frame of mind. I sepent several years going through the physical consequences of mine. Just like in the writing the social impact, the desruction and lack of love for the other is sublime. One of the most harrowing moments is when you realize that although you have managed to remove the physical quality of your existence and no further dependency is impressing upon you you feel empty, numb, incomplete and you are not used to it becuase the substance of choice used t fill all that up. It has the potential to haunt you.
Wow! at that last line though of the writing that is. So far gone become numb to love yeah I am glad that's over.

Thankyou

[Lyn Anderson]

And I am the one who marries the broken. Strike one strike two, no intention of adding a strike three, but just like the addict, the co-dependent has to break the cycle. The first ex never quit. The second did, but he remains, empty. In that vast unhappy bitter place.

[Rene Salinas]

Not the best people to relate to KL I had the destiny or luck or call it what you will that the person that ended up marrying me was a nurse and helped me all the way. Other wise she would have kicked me long time ago. But then they say you canlt choose love? That it chooses you? What the.....

[Lyn Anderson]

The point is, you took the help and turned the corner. Not all do, no matter how much you help.

[Matching Socks]

Sensitive subject again. Addicts need help, they won't seek on their own but to push them into going for help could turn violent... Damned if you do, damned if you don't.

On another note: Why didn't Cleopatra want to marry the handsome Pharoah?
Ok.... Bad joke.

[Lyn Anderson]

Ha ha funny. No easy solution. Thanks for reading and reviewing.

[Matching Socks]

No. You seem to always have these no easy solution situations. You got nice shoes KL but you can keep 'me. No offence. :) xx

[Frieda P]

Sigh, no words...

[Lyn Anderson]

I know you know all about it. Unfortunately. xo

[Frieda P]

It's exhausting, perfect song too, I've used that one myself... xo

[Lyn Anderson]

I know, I love/hate this song.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

and the ending, yes, that is what will eventually happen...we won't remember the reasons, or the people we affected with our habit...

we are in denial...I am fine...just need that one more Mothers little Helper to see me through, just one more day, one more time.

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, thanks for your review. This isn't the best piece I have ever written, but that's probably because it is too close for me to analyze it clearly.

[Baby Ricochet]

Dionysus was the God of Wine and ecstasy. He was also the God of Madness. The Greeks knew what to much of a good thing could lead to. Good poem.

[Lyn Anderson]

You are correct, for sure, and thank you.