insuffocant

sometimes it is just like this

I quit smoking,
a long time ago,
I couldn't stand the feeling
of something
I couldn't let go.

Most days you are
an insignificant blip
on the radar screen of my ever busy mind;
when you spew your sick thoughts on me,
it p u l l s me back in.

I didn't even read all of it,
I didn't have the stomach
for your threats, accusations
and futile lies; rendering bruises,
and cyber black eyes.

Each word is calculated,
measured and weighed
for maximum effect.
but DONE loses its intensity,
when I said it already.

Now you are the ONE
left counting the times,
hoping if you say it enough
it will be true,
when I already stopped
breathing the insuffocant
that is
y
o
u

Author's Note

I know insuffocant is not a word. But it is in this case.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You had me at the title. "insuffocant". Smoking and life is demanding. Hard to forget and sometime the needs are never forgotten. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks so much, I appreciate it.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[ANM]

Hmmm nice word invention!

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks, I thought it fit.:)

[ANM]

It does very nice poem!

[Matching Socks]

Ding dong the b***h is back?
What the hell is going on around here???
Is this the same person that inspired my recent rant?
Someone has been spewing ugliness around here.

[Matching Socks]

Oh, and I liked your poem!

[Lyn Anderson]

Nope this b***h is my ex. I have a she-devil too, but this is the male one.

[Frieda P]

She's bacckkk...is this she-devil Poltergeist or your ex? :)

[Lyn Anderson]

The ex has crawled out of the mud.

[Frieda P]

They never quit, do they?.........If only they had paid that much attention when you were still married....

[Jessica Lynn Polley]

Pardon my language but this poem is bad a*s. It is very tactical and displays your intelligence as a writer while at the same time it extends a big F U to the person who has once again tried to hurt you. I hope this makes you feel powerful because it makes you sound powerful...no matter what that person says from here on out you have won with this poem you have won.

[Lyn Anderson]

Good, that is what I wanted, and yes, I am pulling myself out of the sludge, thank you.

[Anne Timmins]

Wow, a gripping write. This grabs hold of the reader and does not let go. Great writing.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks for your review.