Sometimes I take the dark

the dark surrounds me

Sometimes I take the dark,
and wrap it round me
like a blanket
hold it close,
let the melancholy music
swallow me up.

I want to be punished,
for being alive
for being happy
for not letting
you reside inside me
too often.

I want to be punished
for letting the
scab reseal,
and putting
your memory
to bed.

Sometimes I take the dark,
and embrace it,
because it's all you
left to warm me
on a chilly
summer's day.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Rene Salinas]

Oh this is brave but not only the declaration of accepting the dark is by no means the same as "f**k it" I have had enough I say this becuase some people do tend to mix them up but the difference lies in that the recognition of dakness as a subjct which inhabits us is one thing been pushed to do something as a consequence is a whole different one. And Kl has decided to wrap herself (I hope is her) but not only that she has decided to deprive herself for having let the memory subside as it is the very memory that gives her the feeling she desires.

Thankyou

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks, yes, I am a woman. And yes, that is it. Sometimes I let it take me, and then I get the hell out and close it up again. That's the way it has to be.

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

My goodness, my friend...I so get this. When the lights have gone out, but you can still remember the lighted places with someone...maybe someone you couldn't save from themselves. I had a dream once, in a damaged relationship where I had to choose to stay and die with him, be sealed up forever in a dungeon alone, or go to my family and friends who were calling to me. Perhaps, I am not reading as you intended completely, but I do so understand. Sometimes the darkness is all there is left of it, but like an old and battered stuffed animal, we just have to hug it before we put it up. I don't even know if I'm making sense here. You have touched me with this...once again.

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, you do make sense, and I will send you some related links so you can understand the full picture.

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

Okay, that's great! Thanks!

[Lyn Anderson]

If I had the patience I would arrange related poems into chapterbooks.

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

I have been meaning to organize mine for years.

[realmwriter]

I see where you're going with this and I hope it gets better.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you so much. I wrote this surrounding a tough time of year.

[realmwriter]

I see that. And I really do hope that it gets, got better.

[Shirlena]

Intriguing title by the way. I was compelled to come and see what the writing was all about and it's almost like a song and said so eloquently and perfect. I couldn't have wrapped myself any better than to read this brilliant poem today.

[Lyn Anderson]

I take that as a tremendous compliment, coming from a woman whose work is so filled with complex depth and breadth and emotion, and wonderful word play. Those who haven't, READ Shirlena. She is worth your time. Thank you. This poem comes from a very deep and dark place, a place I try not to open too much because of the pain, but it shows when it comes from there, I know.

[Shirlena]

but it a beautiful pain and it doesn't make the person reading want to shrink but it makes them feel it's strength and the sheer will of the person writing who faces their emotions...it is nothing to hide from and when you share it's encouraging someone who might be in the same space to keep going and know that they can...it's profound on all levels.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you so much. I really appreciate that. Quite the love fest in here today. I have to go to work soon, I have appreciated the visit.

[Shirlena]

Yeah I know. Ya'll bout to make me cry :).

[Frieda P]

Sometimes the dark is where we find our safest harbor, I get this.....

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks so much Frieda, and I knew you would.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Such a melancholy but as always well paced, flowing and descriptive and emotional piece.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you, I appreciate it. I have been contemplating going back and organizing my work into chapters, so all the related writings will be compiled together, but that sounds like rearranging the closets, another task I keep putting off.

[Coyote Poetry]

I understand the poem. Sometime in the darkness of thoughts. We can find reason to go forward and be kinder. I enjoyed the poem. A lot of hidden story inside the description. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, there is, and a great deal of pain, thank you for reading.

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes it is. We can over come.

[Matching Socks]

In an weird way the dark can be comforting, it's a reminder of darker days, and when you come out of it, you realize how much better off you are... For me anyway... Good write babe. I felt this one.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thanks, it was hard, that day, and other anniversaries to come I would rather not remember.

[Pryde Foltz]

Sometimes I take the dark,
and embrace it,
because it's all you
left to warm me
on a chilly
summer's day.

It is all you have left and you do miss them so. A very deep and expressive write, KL.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you. Yes this was a tough one.

[Vidya Bacchus]

I think sometimes we are so hard on ourselves.Feeling as if we should be punished for being happy,or for a secod forgetting that we are worth it.Very dark cat :)

[Lyn Anderson]

I know, that was the hole I dug myself out of.

[Vidya Bacchus]

I have been in that said hole.I hate it.Glad you dug your way out.That's no place for a cat :)