such a coward

again, some unrequited love

such a coward

last nite i could have sworn
you said it
but
i was too afraid to ask

i don't know if it's
because i wanted to hear it again
or because
i didn't want you to say
it wasn't what i thought or
that it really
was.
instead i showered you
with frantic kisses and pretended
not to notice.

i wanted to ask
but i couldn't
i wanted to say it
but i wouldn't
such a coward
are you
too?

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Linda alexander]

Well expressed and so beautiful too, reader can easily read between the lines, bravo

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you for popping in.

[Linda alexander]

You welcome, take care, have a wonderful thanksgiving to you

[Matching Socks]

People say it to freely I think, maybe in this case it was not so much cowardly as it was caution?
Very relatable of course. Who hasn't been there?

[Lyn Anderson]

Yeah, I am glad I didn't. It didn't work out. I could hold my head up higher when I saw him knowing I did not.

[Pryde Foltz]

There are some things better left unsaid and then some things should be shouted from the roof tops. You got me on which is which. Loved the feeling you were able to capture with this one, KL.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you. It's from 1994. I dragged it out from last year's closet.

[Rene Salinas]

As per usual for me is the meaning behind the words. I struggle to get passed the "I love you" real quick before passing on my way! Or "you know I love right?" Neither of which let's be honest here is very corageous. To mean it is tough.... but the writing is inventive as it weaves through the emotions. Did he? Or didn't he and I want him to say it.... Ice is bang on becoming vulnerable is a difficult proposition nothing to get ahold of or feel sutained by.
This are deep feelings not easy to get close to them.

Intense writing.

Thankyou

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you. This is a writing from 1994. I posted it originally last year and resurrected it for my anniversary on WC. The person who was the thought of this poem is long gone. A painful chapter, but one which spawned a lot of poetry on my part. It was one of my most prolific periods of writing.

[icelandicblue]

Ahhh...I was the first to say I love you to my husband. He was taken aback. I was very young, very naive and I didn't understand the implications or the power of those words in that moment. I just felt them so I said them. He waited to say them and that was torturous. It played on all my insecurities and I had a lot of them at 19. Still do but not so many. Once we say it...we are vulnerable. I really felt this piece.

[Lyn Anderson]

Thank you. I never did say it to him. I am glad I didn't. He sliced my heart and diced it a million times over. It was one of those things that felt so right, but ultimately, was a lie.

[icelandicblue]

I think as we mature we have a better radar about these things. We are more patient. I am happy you didn't say it even if you felt it then.