Walls

Finding hope in deppresion

A cold chill reaches for my toes and pules itself us my legs,

as I sit their holding them tight against my body.

It needs no invitation.

my emotions plead for me to realize them,

they cry from behind the bars holding them deep within my heart.

I am expressionless,

I will not let my emotions loose.

I know what lurks in the corners of my heart and I am not yet prepared to face it.

Along with the hope that with free my mind and soul of depression,

the depression that somehow sneaks past the cell walls where my emotions are kept.

Along with that hope will come fear

fear. Fear. FEAR.

Something ominous and secluded brings back the chill that I had forgotten.

My heart moans, It is worn to its capacity

Like a rubber band it is stretched to its limit and It snaps.

The emotions that begged to be realised run freely now,

baring no limits.

Suddenly I am filled with the walls of fear and the army's of hope.

The healing the peace and Joy give flows to my fingertips and then up to my ears.

The emotions reach out and they work themselves into every crevice of my body.

It works its way to the corners of my eyes and spills tears of fear and hatred,

peace and happiness.

How long could I sacrifice this joy I felt to the mercy that fear held?

How long had I sacrificed my joy to the justice of depression?

My tears flowed freely now,

I held nothing back.

Through the tears a realization of the pain that the emotions pressure brought exploded.

I understood how much sorrow had been compressed in my heart.

That was gone now, hopes bright ray drew a road before my feet.

Now tears of hope ran from my face.

And with every drop they gave wings to the fear and sorrow,

depression and pain.

And everything I held inside disappeared in the ray of light before me.

Author's Note

I write everything based on emotions and experiances iv'e had, I remember feeling this way at one point and how hard it was to get out of the situation.