Steps to Falling in Love With You

On the drive down,

my stomach was in knots.

My brain was jumbled.

I hoped words would come out.

I curled my toes under your

ridiculously perfect a*s.

We watched a movie,

you touched me.

Innocently.

I had to make myself breathe.

You let me spend the night.

I kissed you.

I couldn't take it back.

I kissed you.

Another night.

One more night.

I've had enough to drink

to take my clothes off now.

You forget about me,

against your own will because

I know you have feelings for me,

despite your tough guy denial act.

Days pass.

I miss you.

Weeks pass.

I f*****g miss you.

Goddamnit,

I miss you.

You made me forget about him.

The way my fingers crept into your hair,

your lips on my neck,

the way you pulled me closer

like you meant it.

Let go.

I may have crazy days,

sadness, tears, screaming.

But I am loyal,

and I will love you

if you let me.

You are

so beautiful.