What Does It Mean?

What does it mean?
A pity f**k then leave crawling back towards the door?
Do you understand what you did to me?
I’m in this hole of shattered self-images; of something I think I did wrong.
Nothing but a kiss and averted eyes when your feet started moving. 
I kissed more than that for you. 
What does it mean? 
I’m no good when it comes to explanations. Call it by the books,
I can’t feel out loud.
I tried to show you how much I cared…
What does it mean to give up something that was stolen years ago?
Innocence.
That’s the deal breaker. 
It’s what makes us break. 
Unrelentingly, time and time again.

I wish I had a dick. So I could shove it in your mouth and leave without a second glance. 
But let’s say I’m figuratively speaking for those this is too much for. 
I’m sorry if you don’t understand me, it must be the dick slurring my words.