bleeding

It's about my husband putting me through pain. I even cut myself so many times. I had a history of cutting before when i was a teen. I stopped for awhile until i got married with him.

Sitting here in pain thinking of are past. At first we were happy but now it's sad. My heart is bleeding and so is my wrist. Screaming out your name but you don't care that i'm in pain. All confused with my heartache. All I think is cutting and feeling my blood running down. Bleeding till i'm numb so i can't feel anything. Can he hear me cry? I was so blind. He told me forever but forever is never. Forever was in my eyes maybe that's why i was blind. I can't believe what everyone is saying is true about you. I wish i knew then what i know now. My heart is breaking into pieces and bleeding in your name. I wish i could give you what you wanted in life but now i have to move on without you although i can't forget you. All the lies and cheating i never knew you had it in you. Now my heart is bleeding and i'm screaming. There's nothing I can do there's nothing more to say. I'm just going to keep cutting my wrist all because of you that's why i'm in pain.

Author's Note

Please don't judge me. I just want people to read how i feel i'm tired of holding it in.

Reviews

[SuspectGray]

To start with, in the first line I believe you mean "our" instead of "are". I know you write from a place of emotion and as a result your poem feels more like stream of conscience that a thought out structure.

That being said I can certainly feel the pain behind this writing. I never understood the urge to cut....but as I read more poems like this I get a better sense of the control and release that comes with that practice. I hope writing this down helps you to heal.

[Amber Albores]

Sorry yes i mean our lol. Also thank you and writing for me helps me through my life. I never knew i could feel more pain other then my brother dying. Knowing that i have a daughter i need to control myself.

[Eye Q the Blac Poet]

Your husband's ways were physically harming you. It seems like he was killing you slowly.