Hope

I watched as he walked out of the house

Something told me he wasn't coming back

I had to have hope he would

But hope is just an illusion 

When we got the call that he was gone,

I didn't know how we would make it through

My anchor was gone and I knew I would slowly sink

Nothing about life made sense anymore

My parents always told me you die when you get old

He was forty-one

Mom said we would see him again someday

That was just her hope talking

I thought that I would get over it

That I would be strong for my loved ones

I was only strong for so long until his death started to haunt me

But it's not his face that I see

It's the train

Even though he's dead and never coming back

I can't help but wish that one day he will

He'll knock on the door and invite me in with open arms

He'll kiss me and say everything is okay now

But that's my hope playing tricks on me