A Letter to My Rapist

You took a part of me.

You took my happiness,

My confidence,

My voice.

You said I was your world,

You said you loved me,

But your way of showing me was to never talk,

To shut my lips with yours.

You loved the idea of me

You loved the way I looked

You loved what you could do to me

But did you really love me?

 

You built me up to break me down.

My heart was shattered into a million pieces when I met you

And you had done what I couldn’t and started to put me back together.

But then you crushed my heart in your hand

And left me in worse condition than I was before.

Not only my heart, but my body feels like it’s shattering every day.

The broken pieces of me seem too small to be able to pick up.

I continue to fall apart every day

Even though you are no longer in my life.

It doesn’t make sense,

How one day you were my everything

And now I struggle to even say your name.

Who would have thought that you would be the reason I would be crying months later,

The reason I would be having panic attacks almost every day,

The reason I’m afraid to be touched by anyone else.

You ruined me,

And I will never be the same.

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