I Don't Know Who I Am

I am on the verge of disaster

I am ready to fall off the edge

My body is aching for something

My feet are screaming at me

I have to do something

I need to do anything

I cannot sleep anymore

I am too tired

I cannot eat anymore

I am too full of emotion

I cannot breathe

I am suffocating

The air around me is dense and harsh

I cannot make sense of this

I am lost in my own home

I do not know where to turn

At every corner there are remains

Constant reminders of the things I should have done

There is no structure

Or is there too much?

My back is aching

My hands are bleeding

I am watching myself evaporate into thin air

I am becoming nothing

Slowly they are beginning to not need me

What would they do if I suddenly was no longer?

How would they cope?

Would life continue?

It seems to have continued just fine

No one has noticed how I am falling

Falling every day and I have nothing to fall into

I can feel myself begging for someone

Or something that can help stop the pain

My brain feels it every day

My brain is eating away at itself

And I cannot stop it

I am full of darkness

And I see no light

All I see are dark memories

Faded dreams of things I’ve always wanted

What have I done to myself?

This is everything I wanted

But my mind is telling me otherwise

I cannot focus

My heart is too weak

Where am I supposed to go?

I need hands to fall into

And there are none here